| My decisions to abort two of my children were not based on facts because I was not given any. My decisions were not based on choices because I was not given any. My decision to abort my first child was based on fear and lack of information. My decision to abort my third child was based on pressure from the father and family members. I tried to back out of the second abortion as soon as laminaria was inserted to dilate my cervix. I told the abortionist that I did not want to go through with the abortion. He said it was too late. He said removing the laminaria could damage my cervix. I now know this was a lie. The next day I told him I did not want to go through with it, and again he said it was too late because I was already dilated. The doctor gave me no other options and never attempted to provide help or resources for me to continue my pregnancy. Instead, he performed an unwanted abortion as I lay there crying and begging him not to. I felt like a “trapped” animal with nowhere to run. For thirteen years, I emotionally ran from those memories. Denial, justification, and suppression were the defense mechanisms which helped me to cope. Alcohol and drugs were the means I used to numb the pain. Broken relationships, bonding issues with my living children, low self-esteem, depression, suicidal thoughts, guilt, and anxiety were the results. I suffered physically as well. Cervical damage resulted in the need to deliver my living children by C-section. I suffered a miscarriage; and ten years ago I had to have a hysterectomy. Healing from abortion is long and painful. Thirty years have passed and now I think of the grandchildren I will be missing because two of my children were aborted. I never regretted being a mother; I will always regret my abortions. I once was “pro-choice” because I had to justify the decisions I made. For thirteen years, I was a bitter and angry woman, running from the truth and lashing out at anyone who opposed my views. Keeping up this facade took a toll on my psychological and emotional wellbeing. When I did come face-to-face with the truth that I had murdered my children, the recovery process was excruciatingly painful. It still hurts me today. It hurts me every time I share it, but I must tell the truth. I must expose the lies behind abortion. I must do this so that this horrible crime against women and children will be stopped. America, you gave us a choice; now hear our voice, abortion hurts women. |
| “Healing from abortion is long and painful. Thirty years have passed, and now I think of the grandchildren I will be missing because my two children were aborted.” |
| Molly White Texas |


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